Pain of Suffering

A couple of weeks ago I was hanging out at the Infusion Center, UCSF. All the patient chairs seemed to be pretty full. Each little "alcove" has about five or 6 chairs where those receiving chemo can sit and be comfortable. I logged in many an hour with Rose in those little "spots"as she took the juices. Wandering around, I saw a youngster in one of the chairs. Always makes me so sad. With us older types, we've lived out our lives. For me, I am always philosophical about living and dying. As a Vietnam combat vet, everyday is a bonus. I discovered that the youngster's chances of much of a future is slim to none, at least in this life. My prayer for the very large family is that they can enjoy and appreciate the days he has. Not easy as the sadness sometimes overwhelmes and it is very hard to find the joy in the presence. I relate it, in a sense, to Vietnam. At about six plus months, you went on R and R (rest and relaxation). A week of laying around, doing nothing and the war a million miles away. No, not really. It was in your psyche and if you weren't careful, you couldn't enjoy the present because going back to war was always hanging over your head. God bless this youngster and his family that the present may be what they know. Amen!!!